You be Killin Em - Fabulous
This morning I woke up wanting to “do work”. I love this feeling. I got out of bed, got dressed, and headed out for Starbucks to do some homework. I spent a good 4 hours working on my reading/notes/paper due at the end of spring break. Right before my Ipod died I felt inspired to choreograph again.
To be honest I’m a little scared. (Dance-wise) I hope I haven’t fallen off too far. I love this hungry feeling I have for life right now. I want to get everything done ASAP. ( I know it’s not possible, but I’ll still try). If i want to dance I need to get my academics done first. WOW, this kind of sucks but it will all pay off in the future I hope. I suck at balancing the things I need to do; however, I’ll keep pushing.
For a while I had this feeling of “Extreme Burn-out”. IT wasn’t fun. Even the activities I loved to do were no longer fun. I was not motivated. Maybe this is my turn around? Let’s see how long this lasts. I get these bursts of fresh air, and as quickly as I get them, they leave. I hope this sticks around through out the summer. (Think Positive!)
I need to stay hungry, humble, and keep working. I have so many ideas and things I would like to address once “I’m back”. But for now I’ll keep everything to myself. I’m not directly involved right now so I really have no say in anything right now. When I do come back I hope I become a more confident person. Usually, I keep things to myself because I feel that I’m usually talked over, ignored, or come across the wrong way. Maybe by then I’ll have my shit together and can find away to get my messages across with out hitting any of those points. (That’s enough of that).
I need to focus on my and how I can be better. I shouldn’t be worrying about how to improve other things right now. Priority number 1 for me right now are my grades. I need to own this semester. I hate commuting so far, but right now I have no choice.
** I have some big dreams right now, but I need to take the baby steps and make the connections I need to get there. (you’ll find out when it happens [= ……)
How I feel about life right now:
It’s definitely better than it once was. I no longer have an evil step-father, mom and I speak to each other now, (however i try and keep it short or we WILL argue) and I some how aquired yet another pet mouse. LOL. We named him Aladdin for various reasons. Also our other mouse ‘toullie is a cute little OBESE fur ball HAHAHA. (poor thing) she’s lazy and doesn’t use her wheel. -_- *sigh.
For later today:
-Finish reading notes part 2
-work on case study
- clean the house (somehow it’s always messy)
-**remember to EAT!
-surprise**????? maybe..I’ll think about it
- Gym time/workout/”flow fanatix practice?”
-Mean girls (want to watch)
Favorite song “7 weeks”-gym class heroes
..”I’m putting miles on my body, bout due for a tune up and this gas station food ain’t really helping but…
I’m loving every minute, every road sign’s a reminder of exactly why we did it to begin with”
back to work.. =]